In "real life" I am PAINFULLY shy. I don't really like talking about myself because I don't think I'm very interesting and I don't really understand why people would care about my life (this was one of the reasons I had a "therapy session"). Because of this, I have a hard time making/keeping friends. In college, I had some good girl friends that I lived with, but since I've married and moved away, we've drifted apart. I mean, most of them live two or more hours away, and they aren't married (or infertile), so I feel like I'm in a different state of life than they they are. I don't really call them because I secretly think, "Why? They're not going to care anyway." When I DO see them at weddings and things, I'm genuinely happy to see them, but the conversation is very superficial.
Well, recently I've realized this extends to the blog world as well (yay, there's no end to my insecurity!). I won't comment on more popular IF blogs because I'm afraid they're going to think, "Who in the heck is this person and why are they commenting?" If I DO muster up the courage to comment, I try to keep it short and not talk about myself too much. Ahh, I make it sound like I think these women are awful people, but really, it's the opposite! I think I'M too boring or stupid to talk to these amazing women. I promise I'm not trying to throw a pity party for myself, I just need to get this all out. It helps to see all my crazy on paper...er...screen.
Well. I'm going to go sit in my padded room now.