...and 12 days post-peak. I'm desperately trying not to get my hopes up. I know I'm just going to be disappointed. CD1 is either going to come in the next couple of days, or I'll skip my period this month and not be pregnant. I'm not going to let myself get my hopes up.
I don't understand how it's so easy for some women to get pregnant. During one doctor's visit, my doctor told me he knows a woman who got pregnant in college without even having "relations". She was just fooling around with some guy and got pregnant! I don't understand. I know I sound like a huge baby saying this, but it's not fair! Sometimes I just want to scream out of frustration. I don't know how so many of you (amazing) women got through years of IF...I'm a big wimp.
My husband's brother's baby mama (got that?) is pregnant AGAIN, this time with a baby boy (they have a 2 year old girl). I'm trying so, so hard to be happy for them. It's really difficult to not be bitter. I think awful things like, "But they don't have a steady income! Their car just got repossesed! They're not married! They can barely take care of one baby! They use contraception! Why can THEY get pregnant and not us?". I know that nobody has a RIGHT to a child, but I think these things anyway.
Sigh. I'm a horrible person.