Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Challenges

Oy. I'm such a horrible blogger. I'm so sorry it's been forever since I posted. We've had so many things going on it's just ridiculous (or maybe it just seems like I'm busy because I'm constantly watching my dog! lol).

Since the last time I posted my grandmother passed away. She was holding an old, beautiful gold rosary in her hands in the casket, which my grandpa gave to me.  It's just so hard to believe she's gone. The wake and funeral feel like a dream. Please pray for her soul and for my poor grandpa. He's totally lost without Grandma. He has no idea how to cook or clean or pay the bills.  The funeral is bringing out the best and worst in my extended family. My parents are being so patient and devoted to caring for my grandpa, but some of my family members are being HORRIBLE. One in particular has a grudge against my grandma and just won't/can't let it go even though she's gone. She thinks that grandma treated her differently because she's Protestant and that her kids were never treated the same, which is completely false. SHE separated her family from the rest of us by not coming to Thanksgivings or Christmases. Not TWO HOURS after my grandma died, she was already criticizing her. UGH. I get so angry when I think about it! Oh, I could just go on and on, but I suspect I've already crossed the boundaries of charity. :) Please pray for healing in our family, as well!

I'm having a difficult time adjusting to our new city. I don't feel safe and I'm homesick for our old town. The stupid grocery store is forever away and it's such an ordeal to get anywhere. I miss our former parish. We haven't really figured out where we're going to go to Mass on a regular basis since there are so many around here! Boomz wants to go to the TLM about 20 minutes away, but if everybody that loves liturgy flocks to the TLM how is the lackluster liturgy ever going to change? Plus, we have potential friends at the parish we've been attending! We've actually hung out with people our age once AND I was invited to tea once! I didn't want to go because the woman that invited me is a new mother and I knew it'd be all baby talk all the time, but Boomz guilted me into going. :) It wasn't so bad, really, and it was probably good for me to get out of the house. 

My adorable little puppy is driving Boomz and I crazy. :) He whines and whines while in his crate, and last night he peed all over me and my couch. I'm taking him outside every hour and ringing a bell and everything but I don't think he's getting it. He's so snuggly and good (for the most part) for me all day, but once the sun goes down he's totally hyper and horrible. TCIE and Hebrews have had some great advice for me, but more suggestions are welcome! Boomz is about ready to throw in the towel.

Sorry for such a rambly post! I just wanted to get all of this off my chest while the puppy is sleeping. :)

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Holy Smokes!

My life has been absolutely nuts since I last posted!

Boomz got a new job 53 miles away, so we had to find an apartment and move to a new city. Right after he accepted the new job, he got two other offers from different companies, and an interview at another one! The interview was like ten minutes from my hometown and all of my family, so I was really hoping he'd get that one, but alas, it was not to be. So these last few days we've been packing, unpacking, settling in, and....adopting a dog! :) We bought a Cavalier King Charles Spaniel puppy and named him Mr. Ca.rson after the butler on Down.town Abbe.y. He's a huge snuggler and I'm pretty much in love. I don't think Boomz is quite sold on him yet. ;) I feel like such a jerk, though, because I bought from a breeder when there are so many dogs in shelters. Don't kill me, TCIE! lol I looked online at the shelters near our new cities and most wouldn't be allowed in our apartment complex. 

I HATE change, so all of this has been a struggle for me. I'm a small town girl (my hometown is technically a village), so living in a place that has bus stops and interstates everywhere is very strange and scary. I'm afraid I'll never find my way around. I'm also a stay-at-home wife again, since I can't babysit my darling little boy or keep my elderly friend company anymore. I know that the little boy will be well taken care of, but I worry about my elderly friend. She'll be so lonely! :( I'll have to find a job around here eventually, but while we're getting settled in I'll be staying at home. 

Our first night in our new city, we were invited to dinner at a friend's house. There were two couples there we knew from college, and another couple we've never met before. They live in a town near us and when I met them my IF radar was going off. lol They've been married over a year and a half and don't have a baby. I know by normal standards that's nothing, but in our "circle" that's very unusual. I hope we get to know them better so we can have some young Catholic friends! Our first parish was filled with old people and big families. I think we were the only childless couple. 

Ugh, this post is poorly written and all over the place! I'm sorry! My mind just has a thousand things running through it right now. Also, I'm sorry I haven't been commenting! We haven't had the internet until yesterday!