I don't pray much about my infertility.
I feel so ashamed saying that after reading so many inspiring IF blogs and seeing how faithful you all are, but I can't bring myself to pray about my IF much. Every once and awhile (most often during Mass), I say to the Lord or His Blessed Mother, "Please let me have a baby", but that's about as far as I get. I don't pray novenas to have a baby (I started one once and gave up), or rosaries, or Divine Mercy Chaplets. I pray all of these things for other intentions, but never for my IF.
I've been thinking about the WHY behind all of this lately, and I think it comes down to a few things: lack of faith, hope, and trust. Deep down, I don't believe and trust that God will bless me with a child. I'm constantly afraid of getting my hopes up and getting disappointed, and for some reason I equate praying with getting my hopes up. Sigh. I have so little faith.
(Just a quick disclaimer: I want a baby more than anything. Please don't equate my lack of prayer with a lack of desire...I'm just scared)
I'm going to try to force myself to pray about my IF this year. Thank goodness I have a wonderful husband to keep me accountable! :)