Monday, January 24, 2011

A Few Things

Thank you so much for all of your comments on my last post.  They've given me a lot to think about and have been such a consolation to me! :)  Thank you so much!

I went to Confession on Saturday and confessed my bitterness toward God.  Our priest hurt his knee while skiing, so a visiting priest was hearing confessions, and he actually gave me council!  Priests NEVER give me advice in the confessional!  This priest had me in tears, because 1) He was so gentle and he sounded like he understood how hard IF is, and 2) He said almost everything you gals said in the comments of my last post!  He told me that once I surrender to God's will, something beautiful will happen.  It may not be a child, but maybe I'll have some special insight into God's nature that people without this cross will never have. 

At Mass yesterday, the priest (not the same as above lol) gave an AMAZING homily.  He talked about the horrors of abortion and how abortion stems from the contraceptive mentality.  Ahh, it was SO good!  I was so proud of this priest for speaking up about hard issues!

Yesterday, my sister texted me and told me that she caught our little brother watching por.n on her laptop.  He's only 14 years old.  Sigh.  I'm feeling so many different things about this... At first my heart just sunk and I felt really sad, then I got angry with my parents for not forming their children in the Faith, and then I got angry with our pornified culture and the people who make such trash.  UGH!  And my sister is reluctant to say anything to our parents because our brother tells her everything and "she doesn't want to lose that".  While I totally understand that, I just want to shake her and say, "HELLO?!  Don't you understand his soul is at stake here?!"  I also feel like I should say something to him since I'm his Confirmation sponsor...

The most frustrating thing about all of this is the fact that even if my sister tells my parents, they probably won't DO anything about it!  They'll just say, "Oh, don't do that.  That's inappropriate," and just let it go.  If it were me, I would get rid of the wireless internet!  That way, he can only use the desktop in the living room.  But I know my parents won't do that, because they just bought him live.  UGH, UGH, UGHHH!

Can you tell I'm a little upset? lol 

Please, please pray for my family, especially my brother.  At one point, he told me he wanted to be a priest, but in the last year the world has really got ahold of him.  Sigh. 


  1. I think you'd be hard pressed to find a boy in America who has not been exposed to pornography... it's an unfortunate (and disgusting) fact. But hopefully the embarassment of being caught by his sister will make him realize just how gross it is. I'll definately pray for him.

  2. I caught my younger brother looking at porn. I caught my other younger brother with porn on his computer. I told my parents both times. Since the days of our youth, one brother still pretty much trusts me. The other really doesn't. I don't think either understand why I did what I did but it definitely helped shape my parenting philosophy when it comes to the internet.

    I have tried to tell them that while I did do that when they were younger, as they were both now adults, no, I wouldn't feel the need to tell our parents. I do distinguish between an adult and a child for whom parents are responsible and still in greater authority. I don't know if such a distinction would matter to your sister.

    I do understand her concern. One of those brothers later became suicidal but, fortunately, he was the one who was still more open, still needing help, and would tell me. I told my dad about that too.

    While it is possible, if she tells, he might not confide in her as much, if she doesn't, he might very well think she approves.

  3. I understand your protectiveness, I am that way with my younger brother. I know he's been involved with alcohol since going to college...I just want to protect him from the world! I will include your brother in my prayers.

  4. So lucky to have gotten such good counsel at confession! So lucky!

    Your poor brother. I really hope that getting caught by your sister will be enough of a deterrent! Praying for him!

  5. By your reaction to what happened with your brother, I know you will be an amazing mom one day!!

  6. 1) Love confessions like that. :)

    2) We never had brothers, and I've always wondered how families deal with this. :( It must be frustrating to know your parents won't take much action. Prayers headed your way!