Thank you!

Thank all of you so much for commenting on my last post.  I was sorely being tempted to self-pity, and obviously I fell. :(  I feel like kind of an idiot for posting it so rashly, and thought about taking the post down, but thought it'd be humbling to keep it up.  :)  I also feel like kind of an ungrateful brat because all of you really have been so wonderful and welcoming!  Again, thank you so much!


I talked to my husband about how lonely I am, and he thinks that maybe my longing for a baby is manifesting itself as loneliness.  At first I dismissed this idea, but the more I think about it, the more I realize it's probably a big part of it.  My temptations of self-pity always start when I'm reading baby things (at least, that's definitely what happened last night!).  I think I have a fear of being "left out" (not just in bloggerland, but in real life too); being the only one left without a child.  And somehow all of this manifests itself as loneliness. lol  I'm crazy.  I mean, I definitely would like friends too, but that might not be the heart of the issue.  


Thank you, everyone, for sticking with me through my crazy!  I don't think I'll be getting rid of my blog. :)