Thank all of you so much for commenting on my last post. I was sorely being tempted to self-pity, and obviously I fell. :( I feel like kind of an idiot for posting it so rashly, and thought about taking the post down, but thought it'd be humbling to keep it up. :) I also feel like kind of an ungrateful brat because all of you really have been so wonderful and welcoming! Again, thank you so much!
I talked to my husband about how lonely I am, and he thinks that maybe my longing for a baby is manifesting itself as loneliness. At first I dismissed this idea, but the more I think about it, the more I realize it's probably a big part of it. My temptations of self-pity always start when I'm reading baby things (at least, that's definitely what happened last night!). I think I have a fear of being "left out" (not just in bloggerland, but in real life too); being the only one left without a child. And somehow all of this manifests itself as loneliness. lol I'm crazy. I mean, I definitely would like friends too, but that might not be the heart of the issue.
Thank you, everyone, for sticking with me through my crazy! I don't think I'll be getting rid of my blog. :)