Monday, December 13, 2010

Thank you!

Thank all of you so much for commenting on my last post.  I was sorely being tempted to self-pity, and obviously I fell. :(  I feel like kind of an idiot for posting it so rashly, and thought about taking the post down, but thought it'd be humbling to keep it up.  :)  I also feel like kind of an ungrateful brat because all of you really have been so wonderful and welcoming!  Again, thank you so much!

I talked to my husband about how lonely I am, and he thinks that maybe my longing for a baby is manifesting itself as loneliness.  At first I dismissed this idea, but the more I think about it, the more I realize it's probably a big part of it.  My temptations of self-pity always start when I'm reading baby things (at least, that's definitely what happened last night!).  I think I have a fear of being "left out" (not just in bloggerland, but in real life too); being the only one left without a child.  And somehow all of this manifests itself as loneliness. lol  I'm crazy.  I mean, I definitely would like friends too, but that might not be the heart of the issue.  

Thank you, everyone, for sticking with me through my crazy!  I don't think I'll be getting rid of my blog. :)


  1. I think this sounds perfectly normal. And, I love that you thought of keeping the post up for practice in humility! I love being Catholic! :)

  2. I am so glad you are staying! I always read even if I don't always comment! Praying for you!

  3. Well shoot girl, I just now saw your last couple of posts! I have been so out of the loop!!! I am SO glad you're staying, but believe me, I have the same days where I am SO CLOSE to just closing it all forever. Then I remember that no matter where I go, these blogger friends will always be here. :) I think I need to email you now... :)

  4. I *totally* relate to being afraid of being left out or behind. Glad you are staying. :)