Sunday, December 12, 2010

Letting it All Hang Out

I'm considering getting rid of this blog.

I don't know, I just kind of feel like it's pointless.  Who cares about what I have to say?  I don't have any deep insights into life (when I do, I don't know how to articulate them), and I'm not enriching the blogosphere in any way.  I've been thinking about this for about two weeks or so.

I just feel very alone.  I don't really have friends in real life (there aren't any people our age in our town or parish.  It's full of old people or young families), and seeing the deep connections all you (wonderful!) ladies in the blog world have just makes me feel even more lonely.  I'm not saying this to evoke pity or anything, I'm just being real. :)  And of course, I don't mean any offense to all of you beautiful ladies!  I understand that y'all have known each other a very long time.  I don't know.  I'm just lonely.  And all of the pregnancy announcements from my college friends don't help.

P.S. I realize this is totally opposite from the Yaylet'sbejoyful! post I just wrote, but I just needed to get this out.


  1. Woah there missy! I was coming over here to thank you for the beautiful comment you left on my blog and what do I read...say it ain't so? :) So before I forget - thank you very much!

    Now onto the topic at enrich the blogger world just by being you! And who said you need to have deep insights into life (which by the way I think you do), but even if you didn't - I for one would have been run out of the blogger world a long time ago because I lack some definite "deep thoughts" on my blog! I post pictures of my cats hugging for goodness sakes - nothing insightful about that! ;)

    God Bless you GAS! You are a BLESSING!

  2. I agree whole-heartedly with JBTC! If my blog depended on the deep insights I have, it would have disappeared a long time ago!

    I know that days of loneliness are overwhelming, but there are people who care! Keep reaching out, I just found your blog recently - because you left a very kind comment! Will be praying for you!

  3. Whoa, Nellie! You're not going anywhere! A blog is just an online journal, and it doesn't have to spew out profound insights all the time! We are just getting to know you!! You need to stick around, because each member of the Body is important and cannot be dispensed with!! We want you here, even if you are talking about your hangnails! :)


  4. Holdnon there sister! You can't leave now! I really enjoy your blog. Like Leila said, you don't alway have to say something profound. Heck, I never say anything profound. I can completely understand how you are feeling. It wasn't so long ago that I was new. It's hard at first to enter into something already so established. I still feel a tiny bit like an outsider from time to time. But I promise you, if you stick around it will be so worth it. I promise!!!

    And about feeling lonely. I also understand. I don't have a ton of friend anymore either. It's tough sometimes. I've got two great friends but one us about 45 min away and the other is over an hour. I'm slowly starting to make new "friends" at church but they definitely aren't really friendships yet and I'm a bit younger thanthey are. It's hard but after sometime I've realized that the blogger girls are true friends too. We may not see each other and we may never meet in person but the friendships that can be found here are such a blessing. I've never met women before that pray for each other the way these ladies do. I think it's perfectly fine to consider these women true friends. Distance doesn't matter. :)

  5. Hola!

    I agree with all that posted here.

    Actually I loved your previous post!! =) (and do not be jealous, there have been fireworks all night and day!! We Mexicans can get a little overboard with the Virgin!)

    I think a blog needs to be about you and that itself makes it interesting. Each person is such a treasure and so different and at the same time the same.

    For the longest time I felt that I was crazy for blogging, that I did not have anything to say or said it wrong because English is not my language or that somethings are not part of my culture (we do not do Thanksgiving for example and football is a total mistery to me) but I found its a great outlet for me on this IF journey and have slowly found amazing women here that totally support me in carrying this cross. Give it time =)

  6. Did you ever see how I started? It's humbling, ha ha! (Be sure to read the sequel, too.)

  7. I do agree with everyone who has posted already. Stay!! I too have problems articulating my deep thoughts, when I try to write them out it sounds wierd.. lol. But I keep my blog to help me. To get my feelings out, wether or not they sound well written or jumbled, it's for me. If it helps anyone out there, I have yet to know. I enjoy reading your blog. All these blogs help me feel that I am not alone. Even with all these girls getting super close to eachother and meeting up, ( I am jealous bout that though) blogging is helpful for me. I hope that it is helpful for you to just get it all out there whenever you need to, and no one is judging you! I love it just for that reason alone. I hope you decide to stay.

  8. I understand exactly how you feel...the part about the parish and community in's the modern world...the curse of the modern world. But, hang in there. Oh, and feeling like all the blogger ladies know each other so well...ughhh...I feel that way too.

    But, I decided to stay put and I hope you do too.

    Feel free to email me anytime. Where do you live?

  9. Little JoAnn,

    I would love to email you someday, but I can't seem to access your profile! Do you have a private blog? :)

    I live in OH, which is covered in snow at the moment! lol How about you? :)

  10. I enjoy your blog too. :) And I am new too. :) But I agree with everyone... stay!

    And Martha Trying to be a Mary... I laughed out loud about your comment about football being total misery... I feel the same way, haha!!! But I married a man who enjoys it. So I guess I better find a way to deal with that. :)