I'm sorry I haven't written for so long! I have a bit of blogger's block. :) I want to write a post about my desire to be a Third Order Carmelite and another about body image and IF, but I'm not sure how to articulate everything yet.
There is absolutely nothing happening on the fertility front. No period, no CM...nothing. This is going to sound incredibly strange, but I miss AF. lol At least there's hope to get pregnant the next month after CD1 comes. With my reproductive organs doing absolutely nothing, there is zero hope of pregnancy. I miss having that hope.
I've been trying not to get discouraged, and I think I've been doing pretty well, but I'm failing today. My friend T (who got pregnant without trying) is posting pictures of her baby bump on face.book, I found out a few days ago that another friend got pregnant on her honeymoon back in December, and another friend posts about her pregnancy cravings constantly. My brother-in-law's baby mama is ready to have her baby any day now. I'm just having a hard time with it all. I feel quite barren today.
I found out yesterday that my cousin may have a non-cancerous tumor on her pituitary gland which could be causing all of her womanly issues. My old doctor told me that I may have a tumor on my pituitary gland as well, but my NaPro doctor ruled it out somehow. I plan on asking her about it again at my appointment on the 8th. I find myself almost hoping that IS what's wrong with me, because then something can be done to fix it. If I'm in menopause at 22, there's nothing that can be done.
Sigh. I would really, really love to have a diagnosis.