1) I just want to reflect a little bit on my spiritual progress (or non-progress...still not quite sure! lol) from this Lent. :) At first, the no TV and no facebook was chafing (I really, really missed Fronti.erville!). I was bored all the time and I was so used to having the TV on as "background noise" that the constant silence was pretty unnerving. However, now I'm used to it, and I'm not sure I'll ever go back to facebook (which I also consider "noise"), and we definitely won't be watching TV as much, because we got rid of cable to save some money! :) I'm still a bit torn about facebook, because it's how pretty much everybody I know communicates, and I feel like I'm being an inconvenience, but whenever I think about reactivating my account, I start feeling uneasy. I think there are a few reasons for this: 1) It's a huge distraction, and I'm lazy enough as it is. 2) I tend to compare myself to everybody, and facebook just exacerbates this. 3) Total self-preservation. Almost all of my married friends are pregnant. So I don't know...what do y'all think? What would you do?
2) I've been a lot more at peace with my infertility throughout this Lent, which I'm sure has something to do with giving up face.book and my prayer buddy! I still have sad moments, but I'm learning to trust my Father's will. I've finally realized that I most often have "down" moments when I start to think about how "everybody" is pregnant except for me. So far, I don't really have any way of dealing with these thoughts, other than pushing them away by sheer force of will. lol I should probably PRAY when these temptations arise, huh? :) So right now, I'm trying to figure out what God wants me to do with my life while I wait to fulfill my vocation. :) Please pray for me!
3) Boomz and I had a little "incident" on Holy Saturday. A package with no return address was shipped to his mother's house but was addressed to him, and it was a beautiful rosary from Irela.nd made from conn.emara marble. I instantly knew it was from his ex-girlfriend, and I was ANGRY. Like SUPER angry. Not at my husband, but at HER, as I kept calling her (I know, not exactly charitable! :/). Boomz kept insisting that it probably wasn't from her, but I knew it was because of the town on the post mark (or whatever it's called).
Let me explain a little about why I was so angry. She's kind of still obsessed with my husband, even though they haven't seen each other in years. She randomly texts him sometimes (not on a regular basis or anything), saying things like, "Why do I still miss you?". Boomz doesn't answer them, of course. She also hates me for "stealing" him from her when I came home from the convent. I just think that giving him the (expensive) rosary was totally inappropriate. So I guess I'm asking-do you think it was inappropriate of HER ;) to send this to my husband? Or am I just a crazy person?