Did anybody else see "my" sisters on Opra.h today?!
I love them so much!
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
It's CD19...
...so shouldn't my mucus buildup be starting? Well, it's not. I've been having a lot of 4, 2W, and 2 days, but that's about it. :( I wonder what it would be like to have a predictable cycle. I've always been in awe of women that know what day AF will be coming, because I have never, ever been like that. My sister sometimes even knows what time of DAY hers will be coming. Yesterday, I realized that my sister may have children before I do. I could potentially be "atomically-lapped", in the words of M at Complicated Life. :) I have no idea what I'll do if that happens. Ah, well, I'll just cross that bridge if I come to it.
I've been looking up Premat.ure Ovaria.n Insufficie.ncy lately, and I have a few of the symptoms: Hot flashes, high FSH levels, and reduced breast size (sorry if that's TMI). I'm going to bring it up to my doctor in a few weeks, and see what she says. I asked her if I should get an antral follicle count, and she got a little weird about it, so we'll see. I'm planning on making a giant list of symptoms I've been having lately and handing it to her. lol I JUST WANT TO BE HEALTHY! I just want to know what's wrong with me.
I have a random question. My husband and I really want to "live" Advent this year, so we bought an Advent wreath. I've never had an Advent wreath before, since my family doesn't know the Faith, so I kind of don't know what to do. lol I know there are prayers to say each Sunday of Advent, but I don't know what to do with the candles. Do you keep them lit all week? Or just all day on Sunday? Or just for a little bit on Sunday? I have no idea what I'm doing. lol
Blessed Miguel Pro, pray for us! :)
I've been looking up Premat.ure Ovaria.n Insufficie.ncy lately, and I have a few of the symptoms: Hot flashes, high FSH levels, and reduced breast size (sorry if that's TMI). I'm going to bring it up to my doctor in a few weeks, and see what she says. I asked her if I should get an antral follicle count, and she got a little weird about it, so we'll see. I'm planning on making a giant list of symptoms I've been having lately and handing it to her. lol I JUST WANT TO BE HEALTHY! I just want to know what's wrong with me.
I have a random question. My husband and I really want to "live" Advent this year, so we bought an Advent wreath. I've never had an Advent wreath before, since my family doesn't know the Faith, so I kind of don't know what to do. lol I know there are prayers to say each Sunday of Advent, but I don't know what to do with the candles. Do you keep them lit all week? Or just all day on Sunday? Or just for a little bit on Sunday? I have no idea what I'm doing. lol
Blessed Miguel Pro, pray for us! :)
Monday, November 22, 2010
Why I Love My Husband (2)
He's super ticklish! It's the cutest thing ever!
He allows me to live my dream of being a housewife, even if it means giving up a bigger apartment or a new car (for now). I can't tell you how much I appreciate this!
He has all the confidence in the world in my cooking abilities-even though he doesn't have much of a reason to be. lol :)
Sunday, November 21, 2010
Babies are Everywhere.
Last night, my husband and I (I feel like I start a lot of sentences like that. lol) went to Ol.ive Gard.en to celebrate his brother's 30th birthday. His brother's two-year-old, L, was there, whom I absolutely adore. :) I couldn't get enough of watching her! I hope that doesn't sound creepy. lol I just loved watching her little mannerisms-she has such a big personality! I kept thinking, "I wonder if this is what it will be like if I have children. Will I love watching my child's face as much as I love looking at her's? Or will I just get used to it?". However, as much I love spending time with my niece, every time I'm with her the ache inside gets worse. Last night, it was very, very bad. Babies were EVERYWHERE in that restaurant. Seriously every table around us had at least one baby or toddler. The ache for a child got so bad it physically hurt, and I was having a very hard time holding it together. I ended up being fine, I mean, I just put on a happy face and tried to talk a lot. lol
I'm becoming increasingly frustrated with the fact that I don't know WHY I'm infertile. My doctor keeps telling me that she wants to get me cycling normally and then she'll think about Cl.omid and other fertility drugs, but how can she best treat me if she doesn't know WHY I'm all screwed up? This didn't really start bothering me until a couple of weeks ago, because I've just been so excited that SOMETHING was being done, instead of just being wrote off. I mean, I would like to just KNOW if I'm in early menopause, so I know if I have any hope at all of conceiving. I have an appointment in 2 and a half weeks, so I plan on voicing my frustrations. :)
I'm becoming increasingly frustrated with the fact that I don't know WHY I'm infertile. My doctor keeps telling me that she wants to get me cycling normally and then she'll think about Cl.omid and other fertility drugs, but how can she best treat me if she doesn't know WHY I'm all screwed up? This didn't really start bothering me until a couple of weeks ago, because I've just been so excited that SOMETHING was being done, instead of just being wrote off. I mean, I would like to just KNOW if I'm in early menopause, so I know if I have any hope at all of conceiving. I have an appointment in 2 and a half weeks, so I plan on voicing my frustrations. :)
Saturday, November 20, 2010
Prayer Requests
So...my 19 year old sister just called me and told me that she's engaged. I'm having mixed feelings. I'm happy for her, because she's so happy, and I love her boyfriend...er...fiance. However, they plan on living together before marriage, and I suspect they have an unchaste relationship. I'm not even really worried about her age (I knew at 19 I was going to marry Boomz), but I am worried about the fact that she has no idea what marriage means. She has absolutely no faith formation. And I'm nervous because this means MORE confrontation for me! lol Unless their relationship changes, I cannot be in the wedding because it would appear as if I approve. When she called, I told her I was going to give her some marriage books (I had Goo.d New.s About Se.x and Marriage by Chris.topher West in mind), because she really needs to know what she's getting into. Do you have any other ideas for books I could give her? Sigh. I'm so worried about this whole situation. I'm worried for her soul and the humongous blowup that's going to ensue if I say I can't be in the wedding. I'm sorry, this is a stream of consciousness post, so I might be repeating myself a lot. lol Ahhh...everything is just crazy. If you could please pray that I handle this situation correctly, and that my sister will return to the Church, that would be great.
Oh, I have ANOTHER prayer request! Last night, Boomz and I went to dinner with one of his former colleagues and his wife, and they're having a really hard time with their oldest daughter. She had a baby when she was 18, she's addicted to marijuana, and she may lose custody of her child. It's a really sad situation, especially since her parents had no idea she had a drug problem. Please pray for them!
Mary, Virgin and Mother, pray for us!
Friday, November 19, 2010
7 Quick Takes!
I guess this isn't an "official" Quick Takes post, because I'm not linking to Conversion Diary, but I'll call it one anyway. :)
1) On Sunday night, I resolved to get to daily Mass this week. It didn't work. I didn't go to ONE daily Mass. :( I tell myself, "Oh, I'm really exhausted, Jesus understands. I don't have any energy at all, if I go, I'll just be miserable." Then I feel guilty all day, because I think of all the saints that dragged themselves to Mass, no matter how sick and tired they were, to be able to be one with the Lord. UGH. I'm going to try harder next week!
2) I just heard on E.W.T.N that half of the abortions in the country occur in only five states: New York, California, Illinois, Florida, and Texas. That just blows my mind. Texas particularly shocked me, because they're always portrayed as conservative! I guess conservative doesn't necessarily mean pro-life, though.
3) This is going to sound odd, but I'm getting pretty nervous about Thanksgiving. lol My extended family all gets together for Thanksgiving, and nobody really understands my husband and I. They all think we're judgmental, and take religion too seriously. I'm particularly worried about my cousin M, though. Since she's gone to college, she's become crazy liberal. She's now an agnostic, aggressively pro-abortion and gay marriage, and is known as the "condo.m lady" among her peers because she hands so many out. She's very vocal about what she thinks, so I'm afraid it's going to lead to a confrontation, or at least some uncomfortable situations. lol It makes me sad because: 1) Her soul is at stake. I know that sounds dramatic, but it's true. She's never been baptized, and I'm afraid she won't be open to it for a long time, 2) She's not thinking for herself, she's just following the trend on campus, and 3) She and I used to be very close, and now I don't even know what to talk to her about. :(
4) I've been having some really great dreams lately! :) They're actually pretty sane, compared to my usual ones! lol Anyway, a couple of nights ago, I had a dream that Boomz and I adopted a little girl with blonde curls and blue eyes (she looked a lot like our niece, actually). In my dream, we were snuggled all up together taking a nap, when I heard somebody trying to get in the apartment. I picked her up (she was suddenly all dirty lol), held her really close, and opened the door to confront whoever was trying to break in. It was two guys wh!o were in my class in high school! I said something like, "What do you think you're doing?!", and they had some kind of excuse and walked sheepishly away. When I woke up, I was missing the baby girl. :( Last night, I had a dream that Boomz and I were best friends with a Hasi.dic Jewi.sh couple. I'm pretty sure I had this one because I watched a documentary on their life a few days ago. It was fascinating!
5) I'm getting pretty excited about starting to teach my little brother about Confirmation! :) It's going to be so much fun! I hope he gets excited about it...he used to love listening to me talk about the Faith, but now girls and skateboarding seem to have taken over. lol He used to have a rosary hanging up by his bed, along with a crucifix and a picture of Our Lady, but last time I went home, I found them in a closet. Sigh. When he was 11, he told me he wanted to be a priest. Maybe, through the grace of God, some of his interest will return through all of this! :) A month or so ago, he was learning about St. Michael the Archangel and the guardian angels in CCD, and he texted me and said that he thought that was really cool, so I guess there's hope!
6) I have worry lines. I'm not even 25, and I have WORRY LINES! What's up with that?
7) This morning while I was reading the Catechism (I'm a nerd!), I found a little card tucked inside I used as a bookmark while I was in the convent. It says, "Oh Mary, I put my trust in you; in this hope I live and in this hope I long to die, saying over and over: My only hope is Jesus, and after Jesus, Mary." It's a quote from St. Alphonsus Liguori, and I just love it so much! I'm renewing my Total Consecration to Jesus through Mary (I don't necessarily agree with everything on that site, just fyi) right now, so that quote is so appropriate. :) Do you have any favorite titles of Our Lady? I have practically a million: Immaculate Conception, Our Lady of Lourdes, Cause of Our Joy, Ark of the Covenant...I could go on and on. lol
1) On Sunday night, I resolved to get to daily Mass this week. It didn't work. I didn't go to ONE daily Mass. :( I tell myself, "Oh, I'm really exhausted, Jesus understands. I don't have any energy at all, if I go, I'll just be miserable." Then I feel guilty all day, because I think of all the saints that dragged themselves to Mass, no matter how sick and tired they were, to be able to be one with the Lord. UGH. I'm going to try harder next week!
2) I just heard on E.W.T.N that half of the abortions in the country occur in only five states: New York, California, Illinois, Florida, and Texas. That just blows my mind. Texas particularly shocked me, because they're always portrayed as conservative! I guess conservative doesn't necessarily mean pro-life, though.
3) This is going to sound odd, but I'm getting pretty nervous about Thanksgiving. lol My extended family all gets together for Thanksgiving, and nobody really understands my husband and I. They all think we're judgmental, and take religion too seriously. I'm particularly worried about my cousin M, though. Since she's gone to college, she's become crazy liberal. She's now an agnostic, aggressively pro-abortion and gay marriage, and is known as the "condo.m lady" among her peers because she hands so many out. She's very vocal about what she thinks, so I'm afraid it's going to lead to a confrontation, or at least some uncomfortable situations. lol It makes me sad because: 1) Her soul is at stake. I know that sounds dramatic, but it's true. She's never been baptized, and I'm afraid she won't be open to it for a long time, 2) She's not thinking for herself, she's just following the trend on campus, and 3) She and I used to be very close, and now I don't even know what to talk to her about. :(
4) I've been having some really great dreams lately! :) They're actually pretty sane, compared to my usual ones! lol Anyway, a couple of nights ago, I had a dream that Boomz and I adopted a little girl with blonde curls and blue eyes (she looked a lot like our niece, actually). In my dream, we were snuggled all up together taking a nap, when I heard somebody trying to get in the apartment. I picked her up (she was suddenly all dirty lol), held her really close, and opened the door to confront whoever was trying to break in. It was two guys wh!o were in my class in high school! I said something like, "What do you think you're doing?!", and they had some kind of excuse and walked sheepishly away. When I woke up, I was missing the baby girl. :( Last night, I had a dream that Boomz and I were best friends with a Hasi.dic Jewi.sh couple. I'm pretty sure I had this one because I watched a documentary on their life a few days ago. It was fascinating!
5) I'm getting pretty excited about starting to teach my little brother about Confirmation! :) It's going to be so much fun! I hope he gets excited about it...he used to love listening to me talk about the Faith, but now girls and skateboarding seem to have taken over. lol He used to have a rosary hanging up by his bed, along with a crucifix and a picture of Our Lady, but last time I went home, I found them in a closet. Sigh. When he was 11, he told me he wanted to be a priest. Maybe, through the grace of God, some of his interest will return through all of this! :) A month or so ago, he was learning about St. Michael the Archangel and the guardian angels in CCD, and he texted me and said that he thought that was really cool, so I guess there's hope!
6) I have worry lines. I'm not even 25, and I have WORRY LINES! What's up with that?
7) This morning while I was reading the Catechism (I'm a nerd!), I found a little card tucked inside I used as a bookmark while I was in the convent. It says, "Oh Mary, I put my trust in you; in this hope I live and in this hope I long to die, saying over and over: My only hope is Jesus, and after Jesus, Mary." It's a quote from St. Alphonsus Liguori, and I just love it so much! I'm renewing my Total Consecration to Jesus through Mary (I don't necessarily agree with everything on that site, just fyi) right now, so that quote is so appropriate. :) Do you have any favorite titles of Our Lady? I have practically a million: Immaculate Conception, Our Lady of Lourdes, Cause of Our Joy, Ark of the Covenant...I could go on and on. lol
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